two-headed boy

Two-headed boy
All floating in glass
The sun it is past
Now it's blacker than black
I can hear as you tap on your jar
I am listening to hear where you are
I am listening to hear where you are

it's odd how we give people the power to wound us so deeply, so freely. i did warn you i get pensive when im up all night studying, lol.

i'm afraid. i'm scared out of my mind to try again, specifically with this new guy. he freaking had a heart attack this morning. what if he dies on me? or what if he hurts me indefinitely like my ex is doing to me now.

all i needed was a text sayiing "I'm fine". and he couldnt give me that. because he isnt okay? or does he hate me that much? doesnt he know i'll always love him? i cant take my heart back. all i can hope for is that the pain of going on without him lessens over time. meanwhile there are a thousand things that remind me of him and each one makes me cry. loves a pain lol.