Went to training class this morning. Then my noon meeting. Took the bus home since neither of my friends that take me home occasionally showed up. Now I'm killing time till my bus comes to take me to my homegroup. Then probably a trip to the Mount Hope Diner followed by another meeting.... and my sponsor is the speaker tonight!!
So it's a typical Wednesday. Except this week I won't be seeing the ex bf since he's out of town visiting his new gf. But other than that it's pretty normal and a bit boring. I mean, I like having meetings. And I love hanging out with my friends. But idk.... somehow life seems boring lately. Can it be busy and boring at the same time? Well, it is lol. It feels like something or someone is missing. NOT the ex bf..... I felt like this long before we broke up. I keep adding more stuff into my schedule and it's not that. I have tons of friends. And I'm content with being single for now.... I think. It's not God that's missing. So what else is there? Oh the mysteries of life. People keep asking if I'm okay. And I'm not sure why I'm not. It's not depression, I dont think. Part of it could be my feelings of betrayal by the ex and him having moved on so much faster than I expected him to. But I'm getting over that slowly and it's still there... this feeling I can't quite place. Doesn't help that I'm flat broke and down to my last few cigarettes. :-( ah, well. Time to get something accomplished.
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